“Please Bleed”…..

I wrote last year a blog on survival when dealing with emotional trauma. (The Ultimate body detox) The way I dealt with the loss of my friend to mental illness was a lot through movement. How I deal with any kind of stress has usually been through doing a workout, I was literally running away from feeling any emotional pain. Like this song I wanted to feel I was alive, I didn’t need to hurt but I needed to feel something. I needed to feel anything but the pain I felt internally.

The problem is the effects of this constant physical battle with myself left the emotional trauma unvisited. You cannot expect to function at your best if you’re not completely present and ready both psychologically and physically. It’s what I preach to my clients yet I wasn’t listening myself. I wasn’t listening to what I needed, what I needed was to feel, I needed to cry, I needed to be supported, I needed to be nurtured…. I wanted to “bleed” I wanted to push. and in doing so I’ve subjected my body to limits I wasn’t even conscious I was taking it to. To be able to recover properly we need rest. By resting we repair and regenerate muscle and cells, and allow your body to take on the adaptations from your workout.

I was conscious to take time out, to do yoga, to slow down but still I didn’t address what was going on internally…. “I didn’t have time.” A combination of now emotional and mental stress, and dealing with these by adding physical stress. Does this sound familiar to anyone yet? I’m sure I’m not the only one who has been here.

I’ve spoken a lot about social interaction, the need for touch, the need to talk, just like your muscles need to be released through stretching and manipulation your emotions need to be released as well. You don’t always need to talk to someone, expressing how you feel can be done by writing, through art, through music, and through meditation. Anything that will allow you to completely focus internally, and feel whatever it is you need to, acknowledge, process and let go if you can.

Yes movement can be a way of therapy and it definitely helps me feel better but like many things these days, it’s a mask, a quick fix that’s not sustainable long term. Just like you need rest days from physical stress, we need it the same from emotional and mental stressors. This doesn’t mean you have to be in a sedentary position all day as if you were sick with a virus it just means you need to take time each day to express and feel whatever it is your going through. This is a daily exercise. Last year I didn’t have the physical interaction I needed, a hug, a chat face to face I was very much alone and so I internalized everything and tried to self-fix everything. However there’s only so much of this we can do. We are as human’s social beings after all.  The way we evolve and grow is by working and learning together, we cannot do it alone. This is why we always here, that “love” is the answer to most things. That selflessness action of caring, and being empathetic to another. We have love to give but we also need it to be returned.

Start to come back to the purpose why you’re doing things. It’s ok to want to runaway sometimes but sooner or later your emotions will catch up, and they have to outlay somewhere. Ever wonder why you’re tense so often, why you’re getting reoccurring injuries, why you’re always so tired. Everything is connected, there is no quick fix. To function at your best you have to live in harmony and balance both physically, emotionally, and mentally.


Published by jdv05

I'm an Exercise Scientist leading Personal Training and active tours around Parks Victoria protected spaces of Warburton and the Mornington Peninsula. A lover all things movement, incorporating nature into our sessions and personal workouts. I spent 2014 in Japan working as a tour guide and researching trails and writing active trips for both Australia and Japan. I enjoy competing in fun runs and trail runs, with my favourite being the Two Bays trail run. You can check out some of my workouts and fitness tips on my personal blog, www.getfitadventurept.com Qualifications include: Bachelor in Sport and Exercise Science, Certificates III and IV in fitness, Level 1 instructor in Mat Pilates, Wild fitness trainer, Level I and II boxing instructor, Surf instructor.

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